Oh please, it's no problem at all. Art is not about the speed or manner that it is done in but rather passion put into the piece. I honestly feel bad for not paying you for such quality work. I must also add that your journal speaks truth and by feeling alone I can tell it seems that though there is a tad bit of uncertainty in it you speak from your heart and what you believe in and I must concur on your statements. And as with all things there is uncertainty the best we can do is trust in our ideals but not to be so close minded to others. Not that I am saying your close minded at all I'm just saying it more as a general term. Wow I ramble too much, sorry for such a long reply.